The manic haze of the show season seems to leave me exhausted yet enlightened.
First there was the Vancouver One Of a Kind, then Prince George Studio fair, coming home to put on my first biggish show Igloo, and then I was off to Calgary Art Market and Toronto One Of A kind. This season was great overall with a few notes that struck a cord. I now know what I am doing at least a bit better, as it is my 4th real year at it, and I have luckily developed a great community of carny designer folk. Other exhibitors that I respect, admire and can call friend. Those long hours (usually 13 hr days) and intense emotions and social output of the shows creates understanding bonds.
My note of enlightenment was a deeper understanding of acceptance. Inevitably I get super high hopes and expectations for the total outcome of any show, which can leave me vulnerable and disappointed if not exactly on. I had a day of this in Toronto (even though the show was good in the end) where it was a Sat and not that busy. In my exhausted state I hit
the wall - I could not keep positive or able to converse with one more soul... So I went away and sat down for a bit at a near by restaurant and ordered myself a wheatgrass shot, a flu fighter smoothy and veggie burger in the hopes of powering good food to shift the mood. While this helped it took a day of mopping and the next morning of brief meditation for me to really get that my only way and choice for that moment, and life in general, is the truly accept the moment for what it is. To let go of my expectations and to appreciate what is given and thus to surrender. Wow - I mentally know all this rhetoric but to really feel it in a different and deeper way was a gift. And funny enough I had a fabulous time for the rest of the show, selling what I love to make, working with great friends at my booth and just being.
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